There once was a tuba cat, who sat on a tuba…but seeing how it is October. The cat sits on the pumpkin, or Jack o lantern really. So Jack o lantern Kitty cat!
Breaking news: someone lit the pumpkin too much!
That can’t be good. Flaming pumpkin? Flaming Jack O Lantern!
I blew the store up with code mush chocolate milk signs. Oh boy, now that I have had time to overthink everything, I’ve come to the conclusion that they’re not very good. Awful…
Creepy actually. I can see why my manager wasn’t exactly thrilled. I’m a weirdo! Ugh, and I also don’t know math very well. But I’ll be overthinking all weekend, so I don’t know what you’ll be up to. Good day…
You know I had to doodle the eclipse. The earth and moon this time having a dance!
My little homage to
Mary Oliver’s poem, Wild Geese.
You do not have to be good
You do not have to walk on your knees
for a hundred miles through the desert repenting.
You only have to let the soft animal of your body love what it loves.
Tell me about despair, yours, and I will tell you mine.
Meanwhile the world goes on.
Meanwhile the sun and the clear pebbles of the rain are moving across the landscapes, over the prairies and the deep trees, the mountains and the rivers.
Meanwhile the wild geese, high in the clean blue air, are heading home again.
Whoever you are, no matter how lonely, the world offers itself to your imagination, calls to you like wild geese, harsh and exciting over and over announcing your place in the family of things.
It also was not that big but teeny tiny, like snails be. Oh it was moving its way around the pot!
I wanted to make a card for a friend who is having a baby, and something to give because that’s what I do..but I didn’t want to do the typical stork, I wanted to draw a more graceful bird. And I went with a crane.
And cranes are symbols of good fortune and longevity. And perhaps an origami crane for the little one as well? Ugh why so thoughtful? Why
I’ll probably decide to just chunk it.
I could be a graceful crane. Instead of flying to everyone and delivering babies, delivering love and appreciation.
Okay, I think I found my calling in life…the crane life. ❤️
In my yoga practice today we had to fill in the mantra I Create…now, as an artist of doodles (a doodler if you will) I could have filled in just about anything that is creative. I’m always creating, mostly creating imaginary scenarios…ugh..
But I went with what popped up first, developing intuition and all, so that was it. But it is befitting because I do create love. I think that anyone who has received a card(s) from me has felt some sort of love and appreciation. And I make them all personal in some way. And what is art if it isn’t a vulnerable side, state of you that stems from love? As hard as it is to show that side…I think I show it all the time really!
Well, I’m going to keep repeating my mantra tonight. Mostly to myself, and for myself assuredly.
And another half head coffee cup to end the evening.
Hiding in my cup of shame today.
I am no good today. Just want to hide for good.
Why is it that there are certain people in your life who can tear you down just when you are starting to feel better, to discover for once in your life that you are not trash? That you are treasure! Hah, I am a treasure not trash? Maybe?
But maybe you are the trash. Seems like everyone else believes it too.
Is there some way to keep the controlling manipulative people out of your life? I’d like to know… because it’s not just leaving, they will keep finding you. Keep finding your friends, your coworkers, everyone in your life to let everyone know you are trash. When you know that you’re not. But it doesn’t matter when you are quiet and keep to yourself. It doesn’t matter.
If you want to know what it’s like to be alone in life, have a bully in your life who will take every ounce of worth that you have in your body. Then you’ll know what it’s like to be all alone in this world. To feel like trash.
Because it doesn’t matter who you are. If you are a good person or not. It doesn’t matter. Because if they think you are trash then they will make sure everyone else believes it too.
So I’ll hide in my cup of shame today. Maybe forever.
I really dig the idea of the half head in the coffee cup. Sort of half awake, half there, the idea of being a little there but not really. Wanting to be seen, but also wanting to be unseen. Wanting to be visible, but also invisible. Wanting to get to know others, but also want to be safe and secure in my bubble ( of coffee) away from everyone. Does everyone battle these polarities?
I wonder when I’ll finally make them complete.
Oh, just creeping around the corner to let you know I’m still here, just being weird and sad lately. Times call you to go inward and reflect on certain things. Certain actions, or patterns you keep seeing turn up in your life. Knowing you can change just by stepping back and thinking. Thinkin’ about things. Thinkin’ ’bout thungs. Thunkin’ ‘boot t’ings. You know, personally I feel intense lately and got to feel it out.
By goin’ on a walk about? …find out, what it’s all about!
Hahaha who knows that song?
Code Mush 