Look into your coffee mug before you take a sip this morning, or evening, and make sure you don’t miss a smile! It may be a delusion but it helps to be a little imaginative in a dark, dismal world.
Some might say you’re crazy, but they’re just sad they can’t see a friendly little coffee mug smile! Those people need it the most though…
Come on, whimsy your way into the work week.
I dare ya!
More photos of spider webs and the late sun touching the sides of trees …I just haven’t uploaded them yet, lazy I tell ya!
Actually, just preparing for back to school, crazy how it’s that time of year already! Summer ends… I’m not even the same person I was at the beginning of Summer. It’s funny how you’ll do some growing in almost every season…but still there is always the heartbreak of every ending, to a beginning. And I long to step back at the beginning of Summer and just soak it all back up again… Ugh but I’m ready for football season, fall nights, the promise of new growth. In myself and in my kids…
And here is August’s playlist.
I went with Woodstock type songs since it will the anniversary of Woodstock in August. Late ’60s songs. Late summer nights. Then my son’s birthday (the Beatles Birthday), then it would be my mom and Dad’s 50th anniversary if my dad were still alive, so I added a special song that reminds me of them. But mostly hippy songs, that summer of freedom and revolution…I hope I captured a bit of that. I’m still adding stuff…
Just let your freak flag fly, listen to the good old days, and take the pictures. The thing that gets me out of my house on the loneliest of days is my fanny pack, my camera and hitting the trails. I don’t care, it makes me happy.
Back to the UGHS of my life…
I think, therefore I UGH…
I am human, hear me UGH…
What expression explains so much about the state of the world? Ugh
What expression so deftly describes perpetual defeat? Ugh
What do I do when I can’t sleep? create scenarios, write them down, doodle faces screaming UGH
Then go to bed crying UGH
Or just stare into the black abysmal brew of coffee softly stirring the words UGH
Goodnight or Good morning… UGH
I imagine we all are just trying…
Don’t give up!
Here is July’s playlist on August 1st. This is probably because I needed to develop this one so much, to develop the wonderment in my life. I played July on repeat non-stop. And have more continuous momentum for August.
Perhaps by starting with the Moody Blues?
If you’ll notice I stuck with male vocalists throughout this playlist. Particularly from the UK, but Nick Cave had to go in!! mostly English and then the last song by the Guess Who I had to add Share the Land because who doesn’t want a world where we can all live together? A world where people are looking out for each other and genuinely care? I DO.
But this month I really just played Nick Cave nonstop. Which started in late June. The Ship Song and
People they ain’t no Good
People they ain’t no good live
I’m linking the videos of these songs. I don’t know why but the ship song makes me cry. It’s just beautiful.
Maybe Fridays will be music to listen to Fridays on the wee ol’ blog….noooo, why trap myself into a routine and expectations I will never fulfill. I get sidetracked and mostly lazy. But I’ll try. But for now monthly playlists.
So this week I did something out of my comfort zone, I fully emerged from the shell. I won’t give you the details! Nope, but I’m not really disappointed that I didn’t get the job (oh okay so it was an art teacher job for an elementary school). I am just surprised I even went for it…and bombed with my lack of experience and communication. I don’t know how to talk at all ..and I sound like a buffoon! It’s true. I couldn’t sleep because I kept replaying what I said…ugh it was embarrassing. No wonder I never got a call back…
It’s okay, back to my shell. Until I feel compelled again to be ambitious.
I can’t mask my awkward personality. It will not fly in a classroom. Students will see it as a weakness and run all over me. And I can see that’s exactly what this principle was thinking too.
Time to learn to be bold and brave and all that crap that you hear from motivational speakers.
Well, timing was not exactly right but I think the wheels are in motion. I didn’t die from humiliation and intimidation. And it’s sad to be this scared of people and life at this age of life. It really is …now to sulk and be a loser again.
Craptacular.
What is he reading? Books on where to find the best worms? That’s obvious.
A seedy romance about seeds? Hah! Perhaps!
The birds are bathing
In the hot July sunshine
Bathing suits and all
Leave it to me to write ridiculous birdo haikus. But it literally just matches the doodle, so there you go.
I am on vacation this week, not wanting to celebrate the 4th at all, strictly angry with our country so why bother…
But swimming is a particular favorite past time of mine, so I will do some of that whilst protesting in the streets! Swimming in betweens…I was trying to be poetic. Why does anger and rage bring the rhythm out in me ? I’ve been dancing a lot too.
Just stick to your dumb doodles there, please..we don’t want to see any dancing, or poetry.
Dancing with doodles
The doodles dance terribly
Dance dumb doodle dance!
AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!
screaming helps too.
I found about 6 or 7 feathers on my walkabout this morning. The spirits walking beside me on my path? It was special to see, and hard not to think it a coincidence.
Have some wonderment!
I’ll seek some wonderment today, and today I did not bring my camera. But that’s okay, I do think I try much harder to find picture worthy pieces than actually enjoying the world around me.
I was enjoying the birds bathing in the creek. I walked the little edge of the creek for rocks to skip, and slowed my roll a bit.
I couldn’t help but feel better. I have been soaking in all the terrible news and not exactly sure what to do. It’s hard not to feel helpless right now, and to also feel like I’m from another planet! That this is not earth or earth has been taken over by evil humanoids…probably the later.
But still how?? How is all this happening??
Next Mush episode: Earth taken over my Evil Humanoids
Sounds like an Onion article… but the world is stranger than fiction actually!!
Which reminds me of an album by Bad Religion. And I don’t know, punk music sounds like an equally viable way to let out the frustration I feel about the world right now, but also merry walkabouts with birds and feathers too. I may blast the music later. Roll down the windows of my car this evening and let the whole neighborhood hear” f**k Armageddon this is hell! ” Which actually isn’t on that album but does feel like we’re living in hell times. Which then reminds me of a song by Dead Kennedy’s “Hellnation” so maybe I’ll just add that song too. All the protest songs I’ve been listening to all month!
Ugh, calming merry wonderment has turned into rage against the world! GGGGGRRRRR
We must seek wonderment though, must seek wonderment though ….must seek…ugh
Repetitive and unapologetic about it. I’m not a machine pumping out new ideas and thoughts … Ugh
Oh and here’s June’s playlist, even though June is almost over. It took me a whole month to finish. It started off with lots of protest type songs, then finished off melancholy as is my usual way.
And if you don’t know who Octo-Dude is he’s a wandering doodle that sometimes pops up on the blog randomly.
Here’s what he normally looks like:
He’s looking totally gnarly!! If I didn’t suspect that his hair piece is just a floating piece of mucky seaweed…
But whatever, I won’t discriminate! You do your ‘do however makes you feel your best. And I admit it makes him look less Putin like! Hahaha..which is much much better!
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