
Hiding in Clouds



I can’t help but think about Joni Mitchell’s beautiful, iconic song Both Sides Now. I guess just the end of the year coming to a close, life seemingly the same but really so much has changed. The fear of the unknown, knowing you’re not sure of anything really. I don’t know, I think we all need to listen to melancholy music. Just to feel something, instead of dissociating. A dark cloud over your head can bring another perspective. Got to look at clouds from both sides…
Joni Mitchell’s Both Sides Now
Rows and flows of angel hair
And ice cream castles in the air
And feather canyons everywhere
I’ve looked at clouds that way
But now they only block the sun
They rain and snow on everyone
So many things I would’ve done
But clouds got in the way
I’ve looked at clouds from both sides now
From up and down, and still somehow
It’s cloud illusions, I recall
I really don’t know clouds at all
Moons and Junes and Ferris wheels
The dizzy dancin’ way you feel
As every fairy tale comes real
I’ve looked at love that way
But now it’s just another show
You leave ’em laughin’ when you go
And if you care, don’t let them know
Don’t give yourself away
I’ve looked at love from both sides now
From give and take, and still somehow
It’s love’s illusions, I recall
I really don’t know love at all
Tears and fears and feeling proud
To say “I love you” right out loud
Dreams and schemes and circus crowds
I’ve looked at life that way
But now old friends are acting strange
They shake their heads, they say I’ve changed
Well, something’s lost, but something’s gained
In living every day
I’ve looked at life from both sides now
From win and lose and still somehow
It’s life’s illusions, I recall
I really don’t know life at all
I’ve looked at life from both sides now
From up and down, and still somehow
It’s life’s illusions, I recall
I really don’t know life at all
Ugh, I’m such a sappy, crappy person. Let me just blah, blah, blah



Whoa, found this fun fungus on my wanderings! It was cloudy, so some blurry pictures.

It started raining so didn’t get to explore very many places on my wanderings yesterday.
But I danced with a butterfly, or rather, I watched it dance around these flowers. But I would have danced with it!






Oh, and I found a bee too!
It was a quick little venture, but of course it did not disappoint! The rain was therapeutic and much needed for the little plants and critters!


I think clouds chose themselves as the theme this month. Clouds are shrouded over the skies in Texas as well as my mind, maybe everyone’s mind…I feel shifts of energy, confusion and maybe just anticipation..I am not just thinking about the upcoming election, which I know is on everyone’s mind. But something bigger perhaps, or maybe I am just overthinking too much. The latter especially true. Too much worryin’!
Sending out positive energy today, tomorrow, the rest of the year! This has been a huge year!


Going to distribute bats around the store today!
I like to make a doodle everyday for my kiddos so they’ll have a little daily dose of mushiness, I’ve been doing these for a while now (3 or 4 years now! Whoa!). They do anticipate a new dose of Tuesday the Cat or Monday Brain, so I keep doodling. I had kind of stopped because I kept forgetting paper. Now I know better, I keep paper on me at all times! Because you never know when you need some MUSH.
Here is this week’s daily mush!






Totally not liking my snake drawing but I’ll get better!
And Saturday and Sunday well, those are free days of nothiness mushiness…Until next week I guess if I don’t forget or if I don’t feel self conscious.
I did say that I love a good log 😅🪵 one full of weird life growing on it, or decomposing on it. Here’s some photos of various trees I found interesting. Some are redundant, of course!






At the end I had to add some fall foliage from last year! Can’t wait to get out and again and explore the trees!
My Sunday meanderings began like every other Sunday, on a walk in nature of course! And to one of my favorite walking spots here I went. I was anxious to see if any of the colors were starting to change. I noticed some on the very tips of the trees but relatively still green. I probably will go back each weekend to catch another glimpse of some new colors until they are all swept away. Fall usually starts much later here in East Texas. The sun was definitely illuminating some of the rich colors that are about to show. There are so many trees here, so once fall starts here you really need to look! Otherwise you’ll miss some of the beauty of the trees!




I also love to look at old logs on the forest floor. You can still see life on them, which fascinates me for some reason. I have to make a collection of dead logs in my next blog entry because I have quite a few.



This little patch of sun was shining through the forest floor and I thought, what cool little shadows it cast onto this log and the dead leaves!
And lastly on my meanderings, a hawk cut across my path onto this branch! It literally was just a couple of feet away from me as it flew into this tree! I was too afraid to move any closer for fear it would fly away. He was very annoyed at me because every time my shutter clicked he gave me a menacing look. And then he ruffled up his butt and pooped in my general direction, hah! He was very busy hunting something in the grass. Luckily I didn’t mess him up, because he flew away and caught whatever it was he saw (a mouse I supposed). Red tail hawks are so common here, one of the most common birds of prey here that you might miss them if you’re not looking. They are a nuisance to the local bird neighborhood who try and shoo them out of their nesting areas, but very cool to watch and to witness! I caught one hanging out in the rafters at work. Probably looking for mice there too.
Here is a link to the time I saw a hawk at work:
https://wordpress.com/post/code-mush.com/1548







It’s a bit dark so you can’t see his face. I tried lighting the photo up, but still too dark. But oh, what a sighting it was!
Until my next meandering Sunday…