Back to the UGHS of my life…
I think, therefore I UGH…
I am human, hear me UGH…
What expression explains so much about the state of the world? Ugh
What expression so deftly describes perpetual defeat? Ugh
What do I do when I can’t sleep? create scenarios, write them down, doodle faces screaming UGH
Then go to bed crying UGH
Or just stare into the black abysmal brew of coffee softly stirring the words UGH
Goodnight or Good morning… UGH
I imagine we all are just trying…
Don’t give up!
Here is July’s playlist on August 1st. This is probably because I needed to develop this one so much, to develop the wonderment in my life. I played July on repeat non-stop. And have more continuous momentum for August.
Perhaps by starting with the Moody Blues?
If you’ll notice I stuck with male vocalists throughout this playlist. Particularly from the UK, but Nick Cave had to go in!! mostly English and then the last song by the Guess Who I had to add Share the Land because who doesn’t want a world where we can all live together? A world where people are looking out for each other and genuinely care? I DO.
But this month I really just played Nick Cave nonstop. Which started in late June. The Ship Song and
People they ain’t no Good
People they ain’t no good live
I’m linking the videos of these songs. I don’t know why but the ship song makes me cry. It’s just beautiful.
Maybe Fridays will be music to listen to Fridays on the wee ol’ blog….noooo, why trap myself into a routine and expectations I will never fulfill. I get sidetracked and mostly lazy. But I’ll try. But for now monthly playlists.
What are the chances of seeing a red dragonfly? I see a lot of dragonflies especially on my walks…but I’ve never encountered a solid red dragonfly! Until now
It was magical …And adds more to my
July’s Merry Merry Wonderment!
You must create your own light. It’s all around you. Even just closing your eyes and facing the sun, let the warm sunshine cascade onto your body.
I am not the most positive person, I assure you. I pull myself out of dark corners daily. Please look up, look around you, you will find the light seeking you. Even if it’s just a small red insect. But you must be willing to look!
It’s been a long time since I’ve done a floating head of dismay! And why not it floating in a cup of coffee… He’s definitely had too much coffee (man!).
I’m thinking of taking some of my coffee cup herons and my floating heads on coffee cups and making some printmaking. I’ve got a little experience with it, just need to gather the materials. I bet you didn’t know but my brain obsession starting in a printmaking class. I made a woodcut of a giant brain and some etchings. Sadly I don’t have any of the etchings but I still have my woodblock of the brain.
(And Trees) and parenthesis (again) but it’s really been a long time since I’ve shown you my mushroom findings. And a lot are just the same logs but just different times I’ve walked upon it. Here’s some recent findings! I love how they just pop out of nowhere and you really have to look closely. I love good dead logs that have been laying on the forest floor for a long time. It’s still giving so much life after its demise. And remember that, I suppose, whatever you want to think about death…I don’t want to get too philosophical, but trees are amazing and what would they say to us if we could communicate with them? and with fungi? What would the earth be like without trees? Well, we certainly wouldn’t be here…so yes, go hug a tree, dammit! (Even dead logs)! Watch out for the deadly fungus though! HAAH…okay, what irony though…giver of life and death…okay, no, I didn’t eat a magical mushroom! But I’m high on nature that’s for sure!
I wish I had a nature’s guide to fungus, so no, I don’t know what this is. This ain’t no scientific blog or anything, just a studying nature. But my ignorance isn’t flattering so I’m sorry I don’t know what any of these fungi are 😦
This wicked fungus is quite beautiful. And bugs were crawling on it, so I assume it’s not too poisonous (to insects anyway).
Okay, enough! but this was a weird one isn’t it? It’s so bizarre you want to touch it, but I didn’t, I promise!
Well, my friendly dead log with the white fungi I come across from time to time.
Ahhh, the trees!
Of course, had to put a puddle in the mix!
And this just looks like the gases of Jupiter! it was just too cool!
Sorry for all the photos, and I’m just in awe that I keep coming back to the same place and each time I find something new and interesting. I hope you find them just as fascinating.
I would title this one (Nothing But) Flowers (if you get it you get) and for my flower studying. I’m not sure I’m studying flowers as much as I am just admiring their beauty. And how in each time of day (whether after a rainy afternoon and the sun comes in strongly or on a partly cloudy morning).
So here are some days of flower wandering wonderments. I did make that word plural so you can suck it red underline thing/dictionary that says that’s not a word! It’s merry wonderment time (again). Also there’s lot of parenthesis, parenthesises (parenthesi? then?)
I do love how the sun was coming through behind this little flower!
The sun was really that bright that day!
This was after a short afternoon rain and the sun was coming in.
Here’s some more brilliant flowers that day.
To me the way the camera captured it looks like a painting! Cool
The bees were busy today!
So this week I did something out of my comfort zone, I fully emerged from the shell. I won’t give you the details! Nope, but I’m not really disappointed that I didn’t get the job (oh okay so it was an art teacher job for an elementary school). I am just surprised I even went for it…and bombed with my lack of experience and communication. I don’t know how to talk at all ..and I sound like a buffoon! It’s true. I couldn’t sleep because I kept replaying what I said…ugh it was embarrassing. No wonder I never got a call back…
It’s okay, back to my shell. Until I feel compelled again to be ambitious.
I can’t mask my awkward personality. It will not fly in a classroom. Students will see it as a weakness and run all over me. And I can see that’s exactly what this principle was thinking too.
Time to learn to be bold and brave and all that crap that you hear from motivational speakers.
Well, timing was not exactly right but I think the wheels are in motion. I didn’t die from humiliation and intimidation. And it’s sad to be this scared of people and life at this age of life. It really is …now to sulk and be a loser again.
Craptacular.
What is he reading? Books on where to find the best worms? That’s obvious.
A seedy romance about seeds? Hah! Perhaps!
The birds are bathing
In the hot July sunshine
Bathing suits and all
Leave it to me to write ridiculous birdo haikus. But it literally just matches the doodle, so there you go.
I am on vacation this week, not wanting to celebrate the 4th at all, strictly angry with our country so why bother…
But swimming is a particular favorite past time of mine, so I will do some of that whilst protesting in the streets! Swimming in betweens…I was trying to be poetic. Why does anger and rage bring the rhythm out in me ? I’ve been dancing a lot too.
Just stick to your dumb doodles there, please..we don’t want to see any dancing, or poetry.
Dancing with doodles
The doodles dance terribly
Dance dumb doodle dance!
AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!
screaming helps too.
I found about 6 or 7 feathers on my walkabout this morning. The spirits walking beside me on my path? It was special to see, and hard not to think it a coincidence.
Have some wonderment!
I’ll seek some wonderment today, and today I did not bring my camera. But that’s okay, I do think I try much harder to find picture worthy pieces than actually enjoying the world around me.
I was enjoying the birds bathing in the creek. I walked the little edge of the creek for rocks to skip, and slowed my roll a bit.
I couldn’t help but feel better. I have been soaking in all the terrible news and not exactly sure what to do. It’s hard not to feel helpless right now, and to also feel like I’m from another planet! That this is not earth or earth has been taken over by evil humanoids…probably the later.
But still how?? How is all this happening??
Next Mush episode: Earth taken over my Evil Humanoids
Sounds like an Onion article… but the world is stranger than fiction actually!!
Which reminds me of an album by Bad Religion. And I don’t know, punk music sounds like an equally viable way to let out the frustration I feel about the world right now, but also merry walkabouts with birds and feathers too. I may blast the music later. Roll down the windows of my car this evening and let the whole neighborhood hear” f**k Armageddon this is hell! ” Which actually isn’t on that album but does feel like we’re living in hell times. Which then reminds me of a song by Dead Kennedy’s “Hellnation” so maybe I’ll just add that song too. All the protest songs I’ve been listening to all month!
Ugh, calming merry wonderment has turned into rage against the world! GGGGGRRRRR
We must seek wonderment though, must seek wonderment though ….must seek…ugh
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