I can’t help but think about Joni Mitchell’s beautiful, iconic song Both Sides Now.  I guess just the end of the year coming to a close, life seemingly the same but really so much has changed. The fear of the unknown, knowing you’re not sure of anything really. I don’t know, I think we all need to listen to melancholy music. Just to feel something, instead of dissociating. A dark cloud over your head can bring another perspective. Got to look at clouds from both sides…

Joni Mitchell’s Both Sides Now

Rows and flows of angel hair

And ice cream castles in the air

And feather canyons everywhere

I’ve looked at clouds that way

But now they only block the sun

They rain and snow on everyone

So many things I would’ve done

But clouds got in the way

I’ve looked at clouds from both sides now

From up and down, and still somehow

It’s cloud illusions, I recall

I really don’t know clouds at all

Moons and Junes and Ferris wheels

The dizzy dancin’ way you feel

As every fairy tale comes real

I’ve looked at love that way

But now it’s just another show

You leave ’em laughin’ when you go

And if you care, don’t let them know

Don’t give yourself away

I’ve looked at love from both sides now

From give and take, and still somehow

It’s love’s illusions, I recall

I really don’t know love at all

Tears and fears and feeling proud

To say “I love you” right out loud

Dreams and schemes and circus crowds

I’ve looked at life that way

But now old friends are acting strange

They shake their heads, they say I’ve changed

Well, something’s lost, but something’s gained

In living every day

I’ve looked at life from both sides now

From win and lose and still somehow

It’s life’s illusions, I recall

I really don’t know life at all

I’ve looked at life from both sides now

From up and down, and still somehow

It’s life’s illusions, I recall

I really don’t know life at all

Ugh, I’m such a sappy, crappy person. Let me just blah, blah, blah