It’s your birthday code mush. Slug it all out by devouring cake as slowly and deliciously as possible, while screaming at the top of your lungs on said cake!


-CM
It’s your birthday code mush. Slug it all out by devouring cake as slowly and deliciously as possible, while screaming at the top of your lungs on said cake!


-CM

I feel not only half a head, but also completely turned upside down in a turmoil of my own thoughts. There’s no escaping them, they just hang upside down making absolutely no sense in the process. Ahhh, ohhh, eeehhh they flip and flop around in that topsy turvy way that they do. Until I’m together again I guess that’s just what they’ll do.
Catch you on the flippity flip!

And to end the turtles theme, I’ll end it back inside in its shell! Hide!
Better to hide than to ruin everyone’s life. I always ruin everything.
More turtles, earth appreciation, and moving cautiously, that’s about all the week has been. Yet it’s also been a bunch of overthinking, (crying) overwhelming mess. In time I guess I will not care so much, but at this time it is all that bothers me. Just people, people and their self-righteous judgements. People and whatever they think, but maybe it’s not about them. Deep inside I’m trying to see that I am a better person, and that I can change. But how do you leave the world of people and their opinions, and enter the world of the not caring about their stupid assumptions? I guess, it takes an inner strength, esteem, self-love that erases their voices out of your head and all you hear is this: I am worthy.
Okay I’m saying this all to the Internet that makes a lot of sense. Into the open plains of the Internet. Into the wired space jungle of the Internet. Okay, you get it..but people suck.




These mushy turtles this weekend.



Oh, just hiding in my shell, nothing new, just figuring and trying to understand the patterns and problems and the slow progression that comes with diving inward.

This weekend we kept dodging the turtles on the highway. One we had to move out of the road for fear someone would crush the poor guy. We had lots of rain so I guess they’re out and about and spring is ripe and blooming full. Oh and not to mention the snakes are too ( did not replicate the snake though, or help it out of the way, but I did not run over it).
I guess the progress is going slow, however it is progress. I remain attached to my shell though, unless I need to retract. I think retracting is necessary. Then every once in a while popping out of my shell to give the ones I care about a doodle or two.

She’s saying, “Here have a cup! Stay up!”
I will hear her sometimes at night (it’s a mother owl I believe outside my window) “who who who whoo… whooo” and naturally wake up and go “it’s an owl!” And go suddenly right back to sleep.
But I had some rather potent cup(s) of green tea earlier and now I am obliged to stay up, owl dear. Dear owl, I hear you. What wisdom do you bestow on me?
I’ll let you know what she says, with another doodle later.
Another doodle of the eclipse. I was in awe of the celestial dance we witnessed, its brief, brilliant moment in the sky.

Then I read this Japanese Legend:
The sun and moon used to love each other, but because of their time difference, they don’t meet. So, God created the eclipse for them to meet, so that people would know there is no impossible love.
So beautiful. Until they meet again, dance again.

Totally inaccurate I know, but a fun mush-a-doodle. We’re excited because where we live we’ll get to see it. Although we are crossing our fingers for clear skies!

Transform half head. Transform into who you’re meant to be. Not complete, but completely you.