I’m a slow process of kick starts sputtin’ outs.

I wish I could say I’ve done a lot artistically but I haven’t.. most that I’ve accomplished in life is mediocre to say the least. I think I’m still getting there. I’m a slow process of kick starts where I’ll do some stuff, mostly sketchbook/journal stuff then sputter out and just not have the energy. Where does it go? If there were an elixir that kept me going creatively and held me there without the negative thoughts that drift in my mushy brain I could get somewhere! Coffee…please ? Are you the elixir I need???

(No answer)

Sips more coffee

I keep dreaming about the simpler times of my younger years. Where I didn’t really think too much, I just did it. I got a piece of paper and made a comic and then just passed it around in class. I dream about just how happy it made me. I wonder if I should just try again. Maybe here. Start over. But as a mom, with more experience. It’s really not that difficult. I think maybe since I went to school for art I should be this great artist and gone somewhere in my life you know? I would be ashamed to talk to my art teachers and professors right now. I have not done a damn thing…

But art isn’t difficult if it’s just simply putting your voice and mind to paper or wherever it may need to escape. Can’t let it stay inside forever. I don’t need to worry too much about what others may think you know?

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